I was in the darkness. Lost. Messed Up. In search of the truth.
We are in a world full of beliefs. We have our own principles that we live by. I have mine too. I was under the shadow of traditions and universal rituals. I thought that was the be-all-and-end-all.
I grew up knowing Jesus Christ who died on the cross but I didn't even know the significance of His death 2,000 years ago. I pitied the man hanging on the cross because they said he was innocent. I cried seeing my childhood friends watching the people on television portraying the crucifixion. I could hardly watch the torture. I didn't even want to hear the man's agonizing voice while those armored-Roman soldiers pierced the nail on Jesus' hands. I could remember myself covering my eyes and only peeked through my finger as if I was watching a horror movie.
I felt something weird upon hearing the man's last words before His last breath. I couldn't fathom what was bugging me. I felt guilty of a crime I was sure I didn't do.
"Forgive them for they know not what they do."
What did He mean when He said this? Why was He asking for forgiveness on behalf of those who persecuted Him? I got perplexed.
I did not realize this until I reached my secondary year in school. God used people as instruments to draw me closer to Him. He used my aunt and grandmother who have found the truth already. They used to bring me to church, Bible Studies, fellowships, and prayer meetings. Gradually, God touched me in an unexplainable way.
He gave me sight to see the light. He gave me the wisdom to understand the truth.
It was a bitter-sweet encounter with the truth. Little did I realize, I was one of the reasons why Jesus Christ was crucified. My sins made Him shed His blood.
Jesus Christ had to sacrifice His life to redeem me, to redeem all of us. As atonement for sins, God has to manifest Himself into flesh, die, and be raised again. It was the only way for men to be reconciled with Him. We may not understand all of God's ways but one thing is clear for me - He died for all of us because of His great love for us. God could have just easily ended our lives just like in Noah's time but He didn't because He wants to give us eternal life and to be in His kingdom when this earth fades.
I thank God for His saving grace. I don't deserve this grace but He gave it freely.
Jesus' death and resurrection gave us freedom. We are no longer under the law of sin and death (Romans 8:2).
Human as we are, we commit sin again and again and again. If Jesus didn't sacrifice His life, we are still in bondage with sin and be separated from God forever. Jesus delivered us from this law and made a way for a sinner like me to change through repentance, baptism in the name of Jesus Christ, and the work of the Holy Ghost; so I can live a new life, and receive the promised eternal life in God's time.
I praise Jesus Christ for His amazing grace that saved the lost, the wretched me!
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:38-39 King James Version